Anxiety Attack
Journal Entry: Wed Apr 30, 2008, 4:04 PM
- Mood:
Hostile - Listening to: The loudest music I have.
- Reading: My Antonia. Fuck you English class.
- Playing: AP review discs don't count as a videogames.
- Drinking: Coffee. Strong-ass coffee.
I don't think I've ever cried this much within a month. This is by far the worst time of my life. My grandmother passed away last week, and my mother went back to China to get some closure after being back for barely a week.
AP exams are on Monday, and I'm not nearly ready. No test should be so stressful that it makes you break down in tears. Not to mention that it's the hardest of all of them and my worst class. No one should have to take a college level exam as a freshman. It's just insane. People keep telling me that getting a 3 at my age should be an achievement, but I know it's not going to be good enough for my mom. I swear to god, this test is going to give me a fucking ulcer and atleast two anxiety attacks before it's over. I will cry during the test. That is for sure. I'd also like to say "Fuck you Congress. I don't care that the Senate can ratify treaties and that the House can't. I don't give a shit about what all the different committees in the House does, and no, I don't care about your checks and goddamn balances. Same goes to you Mr. President. Who gives a damn which of your powers are enumerated? And no. I am not going to waste my time learning that in recent years, you've relied strongly on the White House Staff for advice!"
Oh yeah, did I mention my dad thinks I should already know what I want to major in? Again, I'm a freshman in highschool. I've got two years to decide, but no, not good enough. You divorced my mom and you're only here now because she isn't. You have no authority, atleast, you shouldn't. I refuse to do research on college majors and minors everyday, and no, I'm not sending you a summary of my non-existant research. I don't care if the Wikipedia article on psychology is interesting.
Hello there mental breakdown. Long time no see.
Devious Comments
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you dont even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!!!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship
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`Hitori kiri kurayami no naka kimi no namida no imi o shitta
Negau basho fumidashita kedo dare mo kizutsuketaku nakute.....
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you dont even know exists loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!!!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship problem
sry if this is random but i really don't want this thing to happen 2 me
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I LIKE CHEESE!!
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
i can actually feel relaxed when going on deviantart now
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
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"Un'ombra si perde per troppa luce... o per troppa oscurità" (M. Ovadia)
"A shadow is lost in too much light... or too much darkness" (M. Ovadia)
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
I'll prolly just bring Melee over, since I need to give it back to Jale, anyways xD
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"If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like." - Sam (Garden State)
Rawr.
Yeah, let's hope so. Do we have a backup in case he forgets?
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"Hey, what's the fastest way to a man's heart?"
"Through the chest with a sharp knife. Oh wait. Bullet's faster."
And, yes, we are. Hopefully, Mr. Dumas won't forget again @.@
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"If you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like." - Sam (Garden State)
Rawr.
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